In a journal, I began writing when my mom passed away in 1995. The spelling, punctuation, and handwriting are atrocious. (No spelling or grammar check software).

I don’t remember logging any of my life until this point, but I believe 100% writing down my feeling helped me trudge through some overbearing times.

I did not do a good job of maintaining this journal. At first, I had a few long logs followed by sporadic entries spanning years until the last one on July 5, 2002.

One of the things I found most interesting was recognizing my Growth since then. Not as a writer but as a person. It’s interesting to compare how I analyzed situations, feelings, perceptions of others, and how they felt towards me. The awareness of how I learned from some failures but, most importantly, seeing my growth. By reading this history, I could recognize that it took letting go of myself for me to grow and change for the better.

At some point, I began suggesting to others they write their thoughts down, read, and reread their own thoughts, especially in difficult times. For me, it was beneficial.

I believe reading and rereading my thoughts were just as important, maybe more so, as writing them initially. Today, almost 19 years since my last entry in that journal, I find reading these entrees very satisfying. In reflecting, I now see a much bigger picture.

A painting of events that led me towards God and the decision to put God First in my life. I’m so thankful to God and for each small brush stroke of that picture that led me to recognize the importance of living a God-centered life.

“I can do all things through him who strengthens me.”

Philippians 4:13 ESV

“For nothing will be impossible with God.”

Luke 1:37

God First!