I rediscovered a journal I began writing when my mom passed away in 1995. The spelling, punctuation, and handwriting were atrocious. (No spelling or grammar check software back then). I don’t recall journaling any of my life up to this point; however, I do believe that, from this point, writing has helped me considerably to trudge through some very tough times, both then and since. I also noticed I did a terrible job of maintaining this journal; it had a few long logs followed by several sporadic entries that spanned many years, ending with the last one recorded on July 5, 2002.

One of the things I found most interesting in reading my own words was how much I had grown, not as a writer but as a person. I found I had analyzed situations, feelings, and my perception of others’ feelings toward me. I saw my failures in some instances, but most notably, I noticed that letting go of myself was what allowed me to grow and change for the better.

At some point, I started suggesting to others that they write down their thoughts and then read and reread those thoughts, especially during difficult times. I strongly believe that reading and rereading our thoughts is every bit as important as writing the initial ones.

It’s been over two decades since my last entry in that journal. Currently, I write and share many thoughts on social media and on my website, AdvocateforChrist.com, hoping that others may gain from my life experiences, avoid similar mistakes, and pursue my greatest success: putting God first in my life.

In reading the historical entries from that old journal and since then, I’m continuously intrigued by how much bigger the painting of our lives really is, much more than we see in the moment it’s being painted. We live amid God’s artwork, and I’m so thankful to God for each minor brushstroke of His masterpiece that led me to recognize the importance of living a God-centered life.

“I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13 ESV

“For nothing will be impossible with God.” Luke 1:37

 “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33

God First!